The Book of Sunder: I was up all night

</HEAD> <BODY BACKGROUND="sunder_b.gif"> <CENTER><H1> Welcome to the Book of Sunder</H1></CENTER> <CENTER><A HREF="sndrbk.html"><IMG SRC="sndrbk_i.gif" ALIGN=BOTTOM ALT="The Book of Sunder"></A><HR></CENTER> <P><CENTER><H2>I was up all night</H2></CENTER> <P><CENTER><H3>.</CENTER></H3> <P><CENTER><IMG SRC="marble-bar.gif" ALIGN=BOTTOM ALT="------------------------"></CENTER><P> <P><CENTER><H3>.</CENTER></H3> <P><CENTER><H3> I was up all night</CENTER></H3> <P><CENTER><H3> looking for something</CENTER></H3> <P><CENTER><H3> to make things right</CENTER></H3> <P><CENTER><H3> A poem or a golden ring</CENTER></H3> <P><CENTER><H3> Or perhaps some old song to sing</CENTER></H3> <P><CENTER><H3>.</CENTER> <P><CENTER><H3> I am now in a lonely place</CENTER></H3> <P><CENTER><H3> For now all I see is rain</CENTER></H3> <P><CENTER><H3> instead of your smiling face</CENTER></H3> <P><CENTER><H3> And I long to hear again</CENTER></H3> <P><CENTER><H3> your sweet beautiful voice</CENTER></H3> <P><CENTER><H3> But all I hear is pain</CENTER></H3> <P><CENTER><H3> because of an unthinking choice</CENTER></H3> <P><CENTER><H3> I stare out in space</CENTER></H3> <P><CENTER><H3> And hate myself</CENTER></H3> <P><CENTER><H3> for that which I can't replace.</CENTER></H3> <P><CENTER><H3>.</CENTER> <P><CENTER><H3> I stare and think</CENTER></H3> <P><CENTER><H3> and know that most</CENTER></H3> <P><CENTER><H3> I wish to drink</CENTER></H3> <P><CENTER><H3> to you a toast</CENTER></H3> <P><CENTER><H3> so that I may</CENTER></H3> <P><CENTER><H3> Remember that good old Ray.</CENTER></H3> <P><CENTER><H3>.</CENTER> <P><CENTER><H3> A river flows</CENTER></H3> <P><CENTER><H3> from my blood shot eyes</CENTER></H3> <P><CENTER><H3> now, only that pain shows</CENTER></H3> <P><CENTER><H3> I hope it was all lies</CENTER></H3> <P><CENTER><H3>.</CENTER> <P><CENTER><H3> I remember your light</CENTER></H3> <P><CENTER><H3> but now feel only fright.</CENTER></H3> <P><CENTER><H3> I need your love</CENTER></H3> <P><CENTER><H3> and I remember the sweet start</CENTER></H3> <P><CENTER><H3> As a sweet young dove</CENTER></H3> <P><CENTER><H3> That as through my window</CENTER></H3> <P><CENTER><H3> had fled also from my heart</CENTER></H3> <P><CENTER><H3>.</CENTER> <P><CENTER><H3> I cry here now</CENTER></H3> <P><CENTER><H3> and I don't see how</CENTER></H3> <P><CENTER><H3> I could have hurt you</CENTER></H3> <P><CENTER><H3> So many things to say and do</CENTER></H3> <P><CENTER><H3> I truly wish I were with you</CENTER></H3> <P><CENTER><H3> By right or flight or stormy night</CENTER></H3> <P><CENTER><H3> Sweet girl please return to my side</CENTER></H3> <P><CENTER><H3> I lie here and still learn</CENTER></H3> <P><CENTER><H3> of life and love and burn</CENTER></H3> <P><CENTER><H3> And for the tomorrow I yearn</CENTER></H3> <P><CENTER><H3> that one where I am once more</CENTER></H3> <P><CENTER><H3> embraced in your arms as was before</CENTER></H3> <P><CENTER><H3>.</CENTER> <P><CENTER><H3> If love still grows inside your heart</CENTER></H3> <P><CENTER><H3> I wish you and I would have a new start.</CENTER></H3> <P><CENTER><H3> Away from you, my life is darkened</CENTER></H3> <P><CENTER><H3> without your love I live a life</CENTER></H3> <P><CENTER><H3> sans happiness, sans joy, sans life... all blackened</CENTER></H3> <P><CENTER><H3>.</CENTER> <P><CENTER><H3> If there be yet in your sweet heart some hope</CENTER></H3> <P><CENTER><H3> arrest my fall on this painful slope</CENTER></H3> <P><CENTER><H3> and forgive that which I would trade</CENTER></H3> <P><CENTER><H3> my life to undo so that to save</CENTER></H3> <P><CENTER><H3> our love from that of an early grave</CENTER></H3> <P><CENTER><H3>.</CENTER> <P><CENTER><H3> Don't walk away</CENTER></H3> <P><CENTER><H3> from our life of yesterday</CENTER></H3> <P><CENTER><H3> forgive the person for he is not the act</CENTER></H3> <P><CENTER><H3> My love for you is the only fact.</CENTER></H3> <P><CENTER><H3>.</CENTER> <P><CENTER><H3> I need again your smile to see</CENTER></H3> <P><CENTER><H3> and long so dearly for your company</CENTER></H3> <P><CENTER><H3> the miracle in your voice</CENTER></H3> <P><CENTER><H3> instead of that painful choice</CENTER></H3> <P><CENTER><H3> and wish you would repair</CENTER></H3> <P><CENTER><H3> my broken heart and put to end all my despair</CENTER></H3> <P><CENTER><H3>.</CENTER> <P><CENTER><H3> But most of all I need your love to share</CENTER></H3> <P><CENTER><H3> and I would never dare</CENTER></H3> <P><CENTER><H3> again to break your trust in me</CENTER></H3> <P><CENTER><H3> that is why I must make this plea</CENTER></H3> <P><CENTER><H3> for you to rescue me</CENTER></H3> <P><CENTER><H3> and fill my life with love and joy again</CENTER></H3> <P><CENTER><H3> please forgive me and end my pain</CENTER></H3> <P><CENTER><H3> From here I shall put to start</CENTER></H3> <P><CENTER><H3> a new life for me to mend your heart</CENTER></H3> 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